I got lucky....

Not that kind of lucky...sheesh....

I mean that I closed my eyes and my life miraculously seems to have fallen into place.  I'm married to a great guy, own my own home, and now have a wondeful little family started.  I have a tendency to stress about things in hopes that they turn our right and it seems that when I relax and just let them happen, they work out alright.

This brings me to my newest dilemma.  You might know that I am a teacher.  When I was laid off from my last job, I took a job as an education specialist.  This took me out of the classroom and into designing curriculum more.  I thought I would LOVE it, but I miss the kids something awful.  Not to mention teacher hours are super perfect for a mom.  Luck would have it, a long term sub position opened up in the town that I live in.  There's a chance (but no guarantee) that the teacher won't come back next year and in that case the job would most likely be mine long term.  The problem is, is that if I take the job and she DOES come back then I will have given up my full time job and be unemployed....but not even able to collect unemployment.  The job is a dream job, but I don't know if I can sit back on my luck yet again and hope this all works out for the best.  I'd be putting my family in a tough situation.

That said, I do believe that everything happens for a reason.  There's a reason this position conveniently opened when I was home on maternity leave and could easily take the job.  There's a reason it opened up just when I needed it most.  And there's a reason they offered me the job....

I just wish that someone would tell me what to do, but I know the decision is allllll mine.

And here's some smiley Evan pictures for reading this far.